Whitney Houston: When "WISHING" doesn't work

I've been fairly silent about how devastated I was by the death of an Icon and my musical Idol, Whitney Houston. She was my EVERYTHING as a young girl. I won my first talent show, not to mention Five whole dollars in prize money, singing " I will always love you." But the point is, I just like many people, hoped and wished that the drug rumors were not true. Even when she came out in the famous 2002 Diane Sawyer "Crack is Wack" interview, a lot of us still looked the other way. I don't know how many of us prayed for her, but I didn't. I just wished it weren't true. "Somebody will take care of it. She'll be fine. She'll come back. " These are all things I thought to myself. But clearly, the problem was bigger than we thought.

 http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/video/whitney-houston-crack-whack-2002-interview-diane-sawyer-entertainment-15566496

When the news broke of her death, and all of her friends came to her defense, including my favorite Kim Burrell, I was relieved. I thought, "Oh good, she returned back to God. She was clean." I was so happy.  I had watched the re-airing of the 2009 Oprah interview, and I felt better. It was "well with my soul."

 http://www.thelifefiles.com/2009/09/14/watch-whitney-houstons-entire-interview-with-oprah-winfrey/

But on March 22, 2012 the story broke that Cocaine was found in Whitney's system. This made me almost sadder than I was when I found out that she died. She wasn't okay. She wasn't better. And most of all, those mean-spirited, blood sucking reporters and bloggers were right. No matter how I wished that she was better, wished that she was clean, wished that she had overcome that horrid demon, it seems that she had not.

Rest in Peace Whitney.